it's foggy outside,cloudy, and the waves are mad high. this is the scene in san juan, puerto rico, and hurricane frances is to the north of us, but on the weather stations, were covered in the rains of it. we only have a tropical storm watch. our school, st johns, is so lame. were the only school in ALL of puerto rico to be in session. this morning i sat next to the radio listening to WOSO, praying, that there would be no school. NO FAIR! i went...barely anyone was their anyway, so i left during snack. i went to danis house, we watched american pie, ate, ordered from pinkys (this kick ass sandwich place), and talked to forrester...for like a long time...i spent most of yesterday talking to him too...
heres what it says in his profile---
your smile is so beautiful... i can hardly look at you everything about you makes me want you more... with every breath i take i love you even more.. i'm happy your with me... but i can't imagine why you'd stay with me of all people but since you chose me i'm happy.... but with you i give my heart... handle with care and don't break it and for you... i'll always be there... thinking of you caro... lov ya...
im a sap for romantic shit
forgive me? lol anyway
i came home from danis cuz the storm started getting bad, even though it only rained for a second, that i realzied when i got home...lol...well i came down, wind was blowing, it was rainging hard, and i was running in the rain with my convese, which arent the best running shoes cuz u can slip easily...so as i was turning the corner, i almsot fell into a puddle, but thatnkuflly i have good balance lol...i was so scared that iw as going to really hurt myself...i was soaked,
but now im home
and it actually looks clear... i wonde rwhat else will happen
i have chosen between alvaro and forrester... and i chose forrester
i know alot of my friends are going to be pissed off at me, but i'm making this decision for me for once and not for them. i made a mistake at that party, and i shouldn't of hooked up with someone i didn't know...and i still don't know him. he says he loves me and stuff like that, he's really sweet, but i can't date someone who doesn't know the true meaning of love i guess you could say, because then it's not special. this whole week ive been thinkin on how much i like forrester, a lot of people think he's an ass, but he's so sweet, and he has been waiting for me for four months. i went to another party last night, and he was there too, and we just talked, and i realized that he geniunely does like me, he told me that he felt like crap the whole week. man, it took a lot of effort for him to finally tell me what had been depressing him so much. he denied it at first, but finally, he admitted that he was really hurt when i told him that i was with alvaro, that he was practically in tears in his math class...it sounds so sappy, but usually i can tell when forrester was lying, and he definately was not. so i just sent an email to alvaro explaining to him that i just didn't know him, and i cant be forced to be with someone just because i made a mistake, and i really dont know him. forrester and i know each other, and he has been waiting for me...so i guess i have to say to all my friends that im sorry...i have to follow my heart this time, i cant follow my head
here's an email that forrester sent me the other day--
look i know i've been like... not talking to a lot lately and stuff like that.. and i'm really sorry... but listen... i wanted to know if you still want to go to the movies tommorow.... (saturday).... because i really really really really really need to talk to you... and i really wanna see you.... so please call me when you get this email or if i'm on MSN talk to me please.... i love you.... hope you want to... and can come.. muaxx... byez
i know its sappy and lame, and yeah, he did say i love you, but its not the way that alvaro excesively tells me i guess you could say, its..different...plus...i geniunely like forrester...
last night we talked for a full hour and 10 mintues, at like 2 in the morning, and i talked to him the whole party, and ive talked to alvaro for 15 minutes tops...
The history test was super easy!!! I over-studied for it! Now I have to study for french...There's nothing really interesting in my life going on right now except for the fact that i'm going to a party on saturday and there's going to be people from like 5 different schools at it, which means, PLENTY OF HOT GUYS!...Maybe they'll even ask for my phone number! HA HA HA!
REVENGE IS SWEET! :twisted:
Now...on to the french lesson. I know everyone loves food, I mean we can't live without it! It'll help if you go to France, or to a french restaurant in your town and show off!!!
L'Entrée (THE APPETIZER, NOT THE MAIN COURSE)
la soupe (soup)
les fruits de mer (Seafood)--huîtres, crevettes, crabe (oysters, shrimp, crab)
Wow, Today was the First Day of Hell! Yay! :? I woke up, and I said "Oh No!!!" LoL. I got ready quickly, got to school, it was CROWDED, duh! lol...then gave like, a million hugs, got my books, met some new people, too bad none of them are hot, and went to my first class PE. Turns out there's only 7 people in that class!!! Damn, right?
Then as I went to other classes, we had more students. English is gonna be tough, so are all the other courses, we even have a test on To Kill A Mockingbird this thursday. Ahh! I'm already stressed out!! :x
Now...OMG...WORLD HISTORY. I walk in, and this girl Clara, who's in 10th, says POOR NINTH GRADERS, THEY HAVE SANCHEZ!!!
I thought she was kidding...
Boy...was I wrong...
This teacher curses...I guess it makes him more strict should I say, you don't wanna get on his SHIT LIST, and there are many ways to get on it...and it's tough. You can't go to his corner, because that's his, you can't leave anything in his classroom. I was scared...
but i can take on anything!!!
Our geometry teacher...was just a bit...weird...but I feel sorry for him. He's new. I duno If I suck up I'll seem like a freak, but I don't know, he reminds me of someone in my family.
Could there be any more of a lame comeback to Farenheit 9/11 than making a documentary about how Micheal Moore Hates America??? If anything, HE LOVES AMERICA, That's why he made that movie, to HELP and SAVE America from this terrible path that we're heading! Farenheit 9/11 already has some people convinced, I don't think some rushed movie like Micheal moore hates america is going to help much...
Happy 14th Birthday KD! I had fun making ice cream that dint taste good and cake...muax luv ya lots
if you wanna know why you should vote for him, read the previous post, and why he'd make a better president...MUUUCH BETTER!
well today clara called and told me she's back...i hope to do something really fun today and tommorow since these are my last days of freedom, and I've practically wasted my summer. I haven't done anything that "wow"'s me...whatever. Anyway...I love the song that's playing on my blog, what are your favorite songs?
I have nothing too contriversial (like the previous post) or entertaining to write about...maybe tommorow...and if you wanna know about my first day of school, check my blog out on tuesday...laterz!!!
if u dont agree with me, dont be scared, go watch farenehit 9/11...yea it might be a little exageratted...but the general idea is the truth
if u wanna screw the us over go ahead vote for bush
but if u want a new hope...a new light...a new opportunity
vote for kerry
and you know what the funny part is?
i don't live in a place where you can vote for the president, even if were part of the US...its because I care
bush screwed the us over
vote kerry...
AMERICA CAN DO BETTER....waaaaaayyyyy better
and so can bush, but he doesnt deserve another chance...imagine all the other shit heel get us into if he wins again
it just pisses me off that this blogger has the nerve to post about kerry being a hypocrite when hes actually done something for the US, like serve in a war...unlike bush who bailed because he was too scared....boo hooo....and if u have a problem...thats ur opinion...and this is mine
Doctor's...can they get any slower..and other events in my day...
WHY ARE THEY SO SLOW?!?! I just came back from waiting 3 hours for a doctor, just so he could fill out this little paper we have to fill out every year, it's pointless, the paper doesn't chage, the information is the same, so why can't we just fill it out ONCE? I'm sick and tired of waiting in a room full of sick children, with annoying cartoons on the TV!!!! The doctor says i need to take blood tests again, not only one, but like 3!!! And I have a BIG fear of needles...AHH. I also have to get another shot, but I barely feel those.
This morning was the book distribution. I put on my cute American Eagle Pink/Hotpink/blue striped polo, my American Eagle pleated denim mini, and my keds which i customized myself with Happy Bunny shoelaces that say "Hey, you make me throw up a little", and stripes I drew with sharpies. Yes, I know, I'm a freak, but...I had to look perfect in case i ran in to HIM, and for everyone else to finally see me!!! Today was like hug giving day, I hugged so many people jeje. Then, we finally get to go in the gym to get our books. We look for our grades section, and its like, 10 times smaller than all the other grades!!! How sad is that? We've SHRUNK! Then we realized that we had ASSIGNED LOCKERS. NO! We couldn't get these perfect lockers right next to the cafeteria that were big. I was assigned locker #175...it's on the bottom...GREAT. GRR. When I opened it, It had this nicky jam sticker, URRR. I'm not a cafre/tekata/ghettoish...i need to put something on top of that...and to top it all of, IT WAS FILTHY! EWWW. Well, I didn't see HIM, I don't think HE'S in puerto rico anyway, but HE will be here soon. Maybe monday. I wonder what'll happen...
I guess I'll have to wait and see..
3 days of freedom left ...WAAAH
A stuffy room...dun dun dun...ThE DOCTOR'S, and other blunders in the mind of a 14 yr old girl
I hate going to the doctor's office. I always feel violated. I don't want them [i]touching[/i] me any where because it makes me feel uncomfortable. I'm just going to get the papers signed that are required for school, and i'm forced to sit in a room where there's all kinds of little kids coughing, sneezing, being loud, URGH. There's meningitis going around here, I don't want to catch it. Don't get me wrong, I love little kids, it's just, well, I guess you could say sickness is a phobia of mine. Then there's the amount of time they make us wait, sheesh, could you hurry it up a little? We do have other things to do. I also hate getting measured. Yeah, I'm shorter than my sister, and yeah, she's younger than me, but do you have to make such a big fucking deal? They make me feel horrible, and then they think they're joking around and making me laugh.
Why is it so hard to ship [u]shoes[/u] to Puerto Rico? I called Converse to see if they could send me these really cute green and pink ones, but they don't ship here. We're a part of the US too...and they sell Converse shoes here, just not the ones I want. I called K-Swiss to see if they had the Denim Classics I wanted, but they didn't pick up.
My parent's say I complain too much. I guess it's true, but am I supposed to bottle up what I feel? But then again, I find it really hard to speak to adults, I'm not like most people, it's just like, I can't relate to them half the time. At a beauty parlor, (which i was at today) I spent 5 hours not saying a word to the lady. Maybe just "si" and "no" and simple stuff like that. But she's the one who didn't start the conversation. Then I see little girls having an easy time with the beauticians. Then again, I don't know them very well. In case you were wondering why I was at the beauticians for 5 hours, well I got my hair permanantely straightened with Bio-Ionics. I can't wash my hair or put it up for 4 days or else it won't work...
today i woke up early, ivana called, said she was coming over, then nicole, to my surprise!!! She knew about the dress fitting, and my mom talked to hers, and we picked her up later. Alex came too. We went to the Group USA in Caguas, tried on the dresses, and they looked gorgeous on all of them!! I'm so exited, i really hope they find more in the states. I'm ordering these new shoes i'll link them later. Denim K*Swiss and Green/Pink Converse. I'm on the fone so i can't concentrate. lol blog tommorow
It's like I have every emotion known to man blended together. That's probably why i get so confused when someone asks me how I feel, because honestly, most of the time I don't know. How weird is that? I can feel happy and sad at the exact same time, like right now. I also have a really hard time picking out and UNKY MOOD. LOL. So it isn't exactly accurate.
My stomach hurts. From laughing! :lol: I just ordered my new backpack from LLBean over the phone, and it's the first time I've ever ordered anything over the phone, and since I'm undesicive, occasionaly insecure and shy, and extremely bad at communicating with adults on the phone, naturally, i was nervous out of my mind. I think I annoyed my mom, although she claims I didn't, because she started yelling and talking in that way that makes me feel bad. I guess I just frustrated her because I ask waaaaay too many questions. But anyway, eventually, I decided to write down what I was going to say, (I know I'm a real moron), because I knew I would pick up the phone and go "Hubba, hubba hubba, UMMMM" LOL. This cracked my mom up, and here started the PAVERA! (Giggle-fit, i guess) I started writing it down, and when my mom laughs, ShE LAUGHS! And I laugh with her, i laugh at anything. I guess i got it from her. Anyway, we laughed untill it really hurt, and I couldn't breathe! I picked up the phone, busy signal. Keep trying. Then i hear my mom silently giggle, and the pavera starts again. I go to my room, make it through, and the lady was SOOOO NICE! I wanna order something else! jajaja. She told me I made a good choice, "walked me through it" i guess, she told me soccer was a great sport, talked about school, and wished me luck. It was great!
Like I said, I found a quincea~ero dress for my damas, I think It's gorgeous. I'm going with two of my friends tommorow, Ivana and Alex, to see what sizes they are, because I'm not quite sure, and they're the only ones I could reach. They're both exited, so was another friend who was gonna go, Katerina, but can't make it. Yeah, the dress is from Group USA, but, who cares. Cheaper for them, they're only gonna wear it once, and also, you can't expect a big extravagant, funky dress for a quince. Mines going to be extremely formal. But one of my friends was apalled, for lack of a better term, or using group usa to get HER dress. It made me feel bad. She called the dresses gringo. Sorry, if you read this, I still think you're a great friend, but a blog to express my feelings, and these are my feelings. I felt really horrible, because yesterday i was all exited about the gorgeous dresses and how great all my best friends were going to look...it seems like i went off when i talked to her, but messenger is a horrible place to express your emotions. there we are with emotions again, i guess maybe she didnt express herself as she felt, but everyone else i talked to seemed really exited.
