I'm trying not to get exited so I can actually sleep, lol...I've had those moments...Is it weird to be nervous? Jeje...Well, I'm going to dance with my daddy and with my damas...and then its party time! Let's just say I'm not going to be doing a lot of dancing since my dress is so POOFY! (But its pretty hee hee) Plus, like my family is going to be there. Like I'm going to dance perreo infront of all of them!?!?! No way...
Um...my throat really really hurts....I hope it gets better by saturday...
Shoutout to all my damas...thanx for working so hard in my 15 it really means alot to me...lets go out there on saturday and have a good time...but still take it seriously!! ur doing great!!! Muax...
anyway my sister is flying down from california today with her husband and baby boy! yay!!!
Anyway ppl this is another annoying reminder for u guys to tell me ALL THE SONGS U LIKE AND COMMENT PLEASE
This is a shout out to my homie G..DANI B!!! OH YEAH lol...anyway...also known as durb...and u can call me cunum (Our initials...get it)..also my counselor...
anyway im still pissed off that everyone at school found my blog somehow......oh well im gna keep writing like i did too bad its my blog if u dnt like it O WELL
OK..People...who are going to my party and ppl who aren't...I know how some of you complain about how the music sucks or anything...but to help me...please send me ALL the songs you wanna hear and ill put them on the dj list (the more the merrier)...Any danceable genre...
My day was boring...my party is ina couple of days i still dont feel like it is
It's weird...I've had this blog for like a year, and NOW people start to find it and i haven't even told them about it (people like in my school)...I started the whole tblog trend in my skul HA lol...then came ivana and then monica
any saint johns pplz in here readin my blog or who have blogs? lol
Anyway, nothing too new today...I forgot my black shirt, after telling myself the whole damn weekend...wear a black shirt on monday for perfiles...AND I FORGOT...Maybe because i was being a loser and reading Night by Elie Weizer as i got dressed this morning....clara would probably have to agree...lol...
It's a really good book, its so depressing, but i just couldn't put it down...that's kinda weird isn't it?
Anyway Melvin told me i played soccer much better today...Gee...Thanx...hahahaha lol Then i got these awful cramps ( ithink they were heat cramps) and im no where near my period? Is the world against me and giving me my period before my quinceanero when i have to wear a white dress and im too chicken to use a tampon...im sooo gonna try it next time....and im sorry for the overshare....I hope its not windy....I hope its not rainy on the day of my party...because...THAT WOULD SUCK...badly...wed have to move the beggining of the party from the beautiful gardens outside of the museum to the inside..which is boring...PLEASE oh please let it be perfect weather!!!
The dance is coming out great...shout out to all my damas who are doing GRREEAT! (yes you clara...jejejje)...Um...It hasnt hit me that the party is THIS SATURDAY...i thought i would be more stressed out...i still feel like its months away when its only like 5 days away...ha ha ha? it hasnt hit me yet...
I need to make a DJ REQUeST list for my party? any good songs u guys think i should put? Please comment and let me know....My computer crashed with all the other songs...thanx
i also dont have someone to do my hair/makeup...uh oh...
anyway im probably boring u so im out
please tell me some good danceable songs for a party (preferably hip hop and some techno haha me and clara and nicole LOVE That stuff..slow songs r good too...and for all my boricuas hahaha put ALOt of reggaeton...thanx)
Yesterday was the best birthday i've ever had. i was so worried and preocupied on how it was going to SUCK, and it was the total opposite. I LOVE MY FRIENDS! I WOULDN'T TRADE THEM FOR THE WORLD...
I wake up at 4 in the morning...lol....and i tell myself "damn...2 hours until i can wake up"...The second the alarm clock goes off I run to my momi and i give her a big hug then i run to my daddi and give him a hug...my sister grumbles happy birthday becuz she was so sleepy jejej...then i take my shower...get readi for school....and im happy...not sad...
Bernie came in and brought me a Care Bare birthday ballon (Care bears rock...lol)...
Dani called me to say happy birthday, and we walked to school together..she gave me a "it's my birthday today!" pin that i wore..lol She also wrote me a letter, I treasure letters more than gifts, they just mean so much more..i loved it...
Then i get to school, people realize its me, and start like jumping and screaming happy birthday. Pam gives me a balloon...Monica and Kadie give me hugs (and so does liek everyone else)...Then I hear clara screaming my name, and i see she has a construction paper crown...she puts it on my head (it said "queen carolyn (birthday girl) and 15 all over the place)..she also made this poster for my back that said Kiss me, its my 15th bday, and had pictures of me on them...It was so sweet...she also gave me a balloon that said happy birthday...
then marian gave me this picture of a cake that said happy birthday carolyn that was drawn on geometers sketchpad...LOL!
monique gave me ashirt that said quinze on it lol it was cul! jeje
we had a class meeting that day, and nicole planned for mr henner (the advisor) to have a little bday greeting ecard on the smart board for me! jejej i was smiling from ear to ear becuz eveyrone came around to give me a hug and a happy birthday
then the pe teacher was being a jerk and basically told me i sucked at soccer (discreetly of course)...gee thanx...he said (i thought u played better)...man he shudnt go around saying that...its rude
i wore my crown the hole day i probably looked like an idiot but WHO CARES! lol...
then in lunch clara said...lets go to the bathroom to talk and eat...and i was like ok...although iwas a little sad that i was away from everyone...then she takes me out and we walk out to the gazebo where like EVERYONE was waiting and they all start singing happy birthday...i was soo happy...i gave nicole a million hugs becuz she took the effort to bring me the cake...it was ice cream cake...yumm!!!
i went around the whole school smiling from ear to ear again...lol...
edda wrote me a letter, it really made my day...i loved it im keeping everything...i felt so special!!!!
then in french class, they sung happy bday to me..:-D
i had a njhs meeting after skul...it took forever...and i HAD to get to a rehersal...when I FInALLY got out, monica and i sprinted toward tony's classroom, and when i got in, again everyone started singing happy bday to me and kd had BAKED A CHocolate cake forme! damn right? it rocked...the rehersal went well...i think my quince is gna b cool...its in a friggin week!
then after that ivana, karen, and nicole came home with me and we all got ready to go eat at pikayo, my aunts gave me a bouquet of flowers thats GORGEOUOS...and i got a hundred dollar check (yeah!)...pikayo was fun...forrester went to...we all ate good food and i was so happy that i was surrounded by all my friends...forrester gave me this beautiful butterfly necklace with green diamonds...it was BEAUTIFL...his card was really pretty too...wen the dinner finished we went outside to this terrace..chilled...me and forrester cuddled...ppl started leaving...forrester kissed my cheek....i SAW A SHOOTING STAR...it was PERFECT...i made a wish and kissed him..
ppl started leaving...then forresters parents came...they hit it off with my parents and they ate dessert and drank....then me and forrester really "embraced" ourselvs...it was romantic..and hed kiss my cheek...then we wud kiss...wen we were all leaving we walked out into the gardens in the museum...looked at the pond...he hugged me and kiss me and spun me around..all under the stars ...it was great...
i got home and opened my presents, great cards from my parents...i had earlier opened my sisters present...a kick ass outfit from american eagle...my parents gave me the last little porcelain doll for my collection (15)...
i went to sleep with a smile on my face
it was the best birthday ever
one last thought...
look wat he just wrote to me.. you make me feel so weird.... lol i can't even concentrate when you touch me... every doubt i had about you and me... vanished after last night... i love you baby says: i can't think of like anything BUT you when your around lol every doubt i had about you and me... vanished after last night... i love you baby says: notice... how you kept making me lose my game last night? lol it was impossible to pay attention to the game
I hate myself When I say something...It's usually always wrong...and if I don't...It's OMG Hello aren't you going to say something?
I've learned my lesson...when something happens (like a fight) between two people I really care about...I'm not going to try to solve the problem, I'm not going to say ANYTHING...
I'm so depressed right now
I feel lower than dirt...
I mess up and say one thing i Didn't exactly mean, then it turns into this whole big mess...and i'm sure ppl are like omg what a bitch...
Ivana says they're not...I really hope she's right
Because I'm not a bitch...
Well, at least I think I'm not
I'm just not happy...
I really like him...and she's a really good friend of mine...she's been there for me...but she doesn't think I've been there for her...when i have...
next time i'll just be more careful...and I feel really awful...
i just want her to know i'm sorry
but i can't leave him....
I just can't
Tommorow's my 15th birthday...I hope vit's good...because my bday is MY special day...i just hope ppl care :oops:
i dont wanna sound like im complainin i just gotta express myself becuz i feel SO sad...i creid myself to sleep last night...and so i could actually sleep i had to tlel myself its going to be okay...
i know how corny
I overheard that ppl wer like...why the fuck is he going to her party/
Today no big at school...I got an 84% on my physics test...EW...See...B's suck because you know you could of done better...especially when you thought you knew the material. I HATE B's...yes im neurotic like that I like A's...RiGHT EVA? lol
Kadie came over after school...we ate...or wait...she ate...cake and ice cream...I did my homework in 20 minutes (RECORD...it usually takes me like, 2 hours), we took showers...put on jeans and sweatshirts and went to school...
Today was movie night at school...we paid 5 dollars for class funds...we watched Big Daddy and zoolander...and ate...and ate...and ate...but it was really gross because ppl started throwing candy, popcorn, and brownies around..and i got onion dip in my hair...now it smells like onion....EW....Gross..It was actually kinda fun...i learned how to do a round off...did cartwheels really fast, i found out i could do a backbend while going down backwards if you get what im saying...I should so be in gymnastics...its so fun!...But im not...lol
Putting on that sweatshirt was a big mistake...it was frikin hot and i didnt put on another shirt underneath...I was sweating like a pig
In spanish class...were supposed to write a poem about one of the four elements (fire, water, earth, air)...and I wrote one thats really metaforical...and it came out really pretty...and ill post it after i hand it in...sorry guys lol its gonna b in spanihs...it just sounds so much better....monica liked t yay! she's usually the one who writes kick ass poems...i love them all...theyre always so pretty!!!! Monica i wanna read ur spanish poem..u inspre me! jejejej (i told u id write about u)
MY QUINCEANERO!!!! OMFG (AGAIN) lol...lots of rehersals...im really nervous...my damas are actually doing very well in the dance...im exited but i hope ppl dont laugh :? because we worked really hard and all and this is one of the most important nights of my life...other than my wedding of course! (yet to come...lol)...
i took my entrance foto yesterday...i had a major case of giggles...i could not stop laughing...but then that means all the smiles in my pictures are authentic! YAY! lol...i got this really great pic of me everyones gonna go WOW lol...it was cool the photographer came to my house and everything...i got my nails done...a nice dress im wore (that im wearing again friday for my actual birthday when we go out to dinner)...and then this really nice lady, jessica, did my makeup and she will be doing our make up! (we were freaking out cuz we cudnt find anyone who was good enough)...
OMFG! After 2 1/2 days without power...it's finally back! I NEVER WANT ANOTHER HURRICANE/TROPICAL STORM! It's so boring...I can't LIVE without technology! I hope we don't get hit again. Omg, what hit us wasn't even a HURRICANE! It was a f***ing tropical STORM (jeanne)...and the government decided to shut of the power...and i even spent a day without water...it's horrible...once u get used to technology...u jut CANT go back...Ive taken the most cold showers of my life! The storm flooded alot...and there was this branch stuck in the telephone wires...the winds were strong...but wutever..i spent most of the day talking to forrester...oh yeah...weve had 3 days off of school...and BALDWIN had class today HAHA...forrester called me from his math class...
anyway i dont want another storm because all this damage...and it was just a tropical storm...i really dont want to know what this island will look like once an actual HURRICANE hits....
It's my sister, Katherine's birthday! she's fourteen today. I'm fourteen! lol...We're both fourteen! hAhA...We were born 11 months apart, except i turn 15 next friday! Woohoo the big 15! It's a bigger deal here than turning 16...the only big thing about turning 16 is that you can drive, and the big thing about turning 18 is that you're legal to buy drinks...you don't have to be 21.
Anyway, we sang happy birthday to her at 9:35( the time she was born)...Gave her presents, she read her cards (i wrote her two). Last night, I blew up 14 balloons and filled up our room with them, wrote Happy Bday <3 Carolyn in our bathroom mirror with lipstick...> She's upset because she doesn't get to see her friends since school was cancelled because of the tropical storm, but happy that they'res no school. I tried to make her as happy as possible so that she doesn't feel bad, because having a hurricane on your birthday downright sucks...I've had like 2...
Friday we're celebrating her birthday at the ranch...and a sleepover...anyway im out
Tropical Storm Jeanne is headed in Puerto Rico's way...it has a very big potential that it will be turning into a Hurricane tommorow. Today, after school, we found out school was cancelled, and it was like a giant party it was so funny. Then I remembered my sister's birthday is tommorow, and she was a little upset. Hey, I've had like 2 hurricanes on my birthday and I was even born 6 days after Hurricane Hugo! It's going to rain...A LOT. Supposedly 10-15 inches. Of course, we can't see any of this info on the Weather Channel because all they're covering is IVAN, and I'm watching the local weater...lol...Anyway, tommorow is cake day...!! YAY!! Happy bday kathi I LOB U!!!!
When I think about him, everything around me spins I can't concentrate on anything but him Yesterday i went to his school's welcome dance He held me, he would hug me, he kissed my cheek, my neck, my eyelid... and we didnt even have to make out im kinda glad that we didnt, because for once, i dont have to always be making out with a guy...i can just be with him and be happy... he held my hand...omg last night was one of the cutest nights ever for me...
i met all his friends...theyre alll soooo nice and sooo funny! I LOVE BALDWIN! lol...Why can't my school have a kick ass campus like there's?
I think my dad really likes him...my older siblings went to baldiwn a looong time ago and he wanted to see the school...so forrester told him all about it...he scored some major points there....
practically everyone in my grade hates him and make fun of me for going out with him...but guess what....i DONT GIVE A FUCK...its my life i can do whatever i want...and if u dont like what i do or who im with remember, im not little passive carolyn that used to follow the crowd all the time...i have my own mind and my own thoughts and from now on...im keeping my personal life from everyone who hates him...
and thats almost everyone
God bless america...and my heart goes out to the families...stay strong....
Gemini's and Libra's are suposedly soul mates...how crazy is that, i just found out today...I've been looking for my Gemini for ages, and little did I know he was right under my nose...
Another thing that's really weird...I did the lovecalculator.com, typed in our names, and we got a 99% sucess chance...
Woah! THis is too much...
I know all that is really stupid and all, but you never know...
I din't get to see him today...or yesterday...or the day before that....:cry:
Hopefully I can go to the Baldwin party this Friday...
(please oh please)
Anyway, just felt like writing that...Yes, I do believe in Horoscopes because for me, they're usually right on the dot...
AHH! Stress should be like, my middle name, because that is what I'm ALWAYS feeling! My friend, Katerina, went to Mayaguez this weekend. Mayaguez is on the other side of the ISLAND! We were supposed to work on this massive french project together, I was supposed to go to her house in DORADO and we were going to work on it today and tommorow. She left without telling me! Hopefully, she's still in Dorado, but if she's not, she better give me a call! Omg, how am I going to DO this project without being able to reach her?
Another thing about Dorado, its like, really fun...and Forrester happens to live in the same neighboorhood as her, and she has a golf cart, and we were going to have some good times driving around...Maybe next time,
anyway last night i went to the movies with forrester, it was fun, and he officially asked me out...so we're a couple! :lol: hooray!
today...there's a party, he can't go...i don't wanna go....ugh...
i have nothing much to blog about...since i decided that i'm not gonna write about guys anymore since everyone who reads it has something against me or somehting...
Anyway, I'm going to the movies with forrester...YES HE IS GREAT to all the bitches who think i'm a slut or that I'm a bitch. You don't know the first thing about me, okay? I'm not concieted...I do alot for others, maybe i ound concieted because this IS MY BLOG. and in MY BLOG i write MY FEELINGS AND MY THOUGHTS. And theyre about ME okay...u ppl really piss me off...and if any of u guys agree with me i really appreciate you....all the shit im getting is really getting to me....most ppl say im one of the nicest ppl they know...and NO IM NOT WRONG....all the ppl who commented probably have no lives.......
i just wanna end this...if u have nothing nice to say...click the little X on the right hand corner of the screen and NEVER COME BACK.
